Tanner, Haley, Emily

Yesterday concluded of:

many things. the important stuff is what I will tell you about.

I took Tanner (3), Haley(3), and Emily(4) to the park...we played, we found a worm, we went really high on the swing, we saw a baseball game, we ran through the grass...we got sand on our feet.

We drove in the miniature bat-mobile to get snowcones. We got strawberry, watermelon, and blue eagle. I wanted tigers blood but I reminded myself that I don't eat High fructose corn Syrup!, we sat in the grass and spilled a lot of our snowcone, we were getting EATEN up by mosquitos so we finished in the car. We mixed all the flavors together and our snow cones turned purple.

Then we went to the library...we were too loud, we spent 15 minutes washing our hands in the bathroom, we sort of watched the family night movie even though we aren't technically a "family", people looked at us like "I can't believe she already has 3 kids!", we did a puppet show put on by ourselves...we loved the water fountain..

We went to Haley and Emily's house. we ate. we sort of watched the bee movie. but mostly ran around in circles. Emily tried to put make up on. Tanner told me he is going to miss me. Tanner leaves. Emily and Haley and I get ready for bed and I read them the Little Mermaid books I got them, I wrote them letters in the front, I read Emily hers first and when i finished she hugged me and said "I love that you wrote in it, thank you for writing that to me". i wanted to cry. Her mom picked out a present for me. I love it. It also made me want to cry.

Everyday at daycare the kids say "Did you go to england yet?"

Plane ticket? CHECK.

Just purchased my plane ticket! I leave on July 6th at 8:00 p.m., I arrive in London at like noon. CRAZINESS. I have spent the entire day pre-packing to make sure it all fits. I got rid of like 20 outfits haha and I still am having issues....ugh...I am so not a fan of this whole packing business.

peaceandlove-A.

Christopher.

This post is dedicated to Christopher:

For teaching me love. For showing me trust. For making me feel. For everything, I wouldn't change it for the world.

Band: Band of Horses Song: No ones ever gonna love you

It's looking like a limb torn off Or altogether just taken apart We're reeling through an endless fall We are the ever-living ghost of what once was But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do No one's gonna love you more than I do And anything to make you smile It is a better side of you to admire But they should never take so long Just to be over then back to another one But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do No one's gonna love you more than I do But someone, They could have warned you When things start splitting at the seams and now The whole thing's tumbling down Things start splitting at the seams and now If things start splitting at the seams and now, It's tumbling down Hard. Anything to make you smile You are the ever-living ghost of what once was I never want to hear you say That you'd be better off Or you liked it that way No one's ever gonna love you more than I do

Goodbye will be harder than I ever expected. But God has a plan. Trusting that plan is how we will make it. I love you always always always.

-ari.

My first goodbye.

today I drove to 2 hours to say goodbye to sara. My best friend Sara. She is probably the only person i will really get to see before I leave besides Chris. we were also supposed to see chad and alex. but that didn't work out. so it was just sara. and it was weird. like it has not sunk in that I am leaving. I didn't really feel sad because it didn't feel real. it never feels real until it is. until I am gone.

Reality

Reality is...

1. I have 17 days left until I leave for England
2. Chris and I will no longer be together after I leave
3. I will be in an entirely new country with entirely new people eating entirely new food
4. I CANNOT WAIT TO LEAVE. mostly.
5. I love my church family and how they support me without me even needing to ask

peaceandlove- Ryder.

P.S. can ryder be my blogger name? haha I think so.

Visa

Things of importance that happened today:

1. Los Angeles emailed me and said they approved my visa

2. I remembered how much I loved my christian ethics class at college

3. I rode my bike for THREE errands and therefore saved gas money

4. Most importanly I AM WRITING MY FIRST POST!

The end. four things. not bad.

P.S. #1 is important because I will be going to england to work as a missionary for 12 months and it was kind of an important step. I leave the first week or so of July.

peaceandlove- A.