"The Demise of Our Love"

I will post birthday pics later :). But for now here is something I wrote and finally finished editing today.

peaceandlove..audreychristine.

Realizing what needs to be realized.

Stanborough Park Church :).
Well Today is October 12. It has been a few days over 3 months since I got here. WHOAH 3 MONTHS! Time has gone by so quickly, and now I am realizing it is time for me to decide what I am going to do with my life next. I rarely have time to think about this kind of stuff anymore, but I need to. I know that I need to stop being immature and accept the fact that college is a necessary step to take. So now that I have stopped denying that, it is only a matter of where. There is Newbold, which, though low on degree options (Iwas thinking about film and media), is less than a fourth of how much it cost me to go to PUC, plus I am already in England. There is PUC...I loved PUC, it was gorgeous, I really like the school, I liked san fran being close, I just loved it really. There is La Sierra, one of my best friends will be there, the other at Loma Linda (both in socal), so if I wanted to do nursing that would be my best option. There is ACA (Adventist Colleges Abroad) in Spain, which considering I want a spanish emphasis on whatever I do decide on, this is a necessary step at some point. . . and there of course is always the option of Colorado. Going to CSU or some other public college and paying way way less, but not getting the enviroment of an adventist or even just christian university. . .



I have had too much time to think this morning. Or maybe not. I love having mornings like this. so rare. to be able to spend a few hours just turning things over in my mind. realizing what needs to be realized.



the past.



haunting.

taunting.

reminding.

unburying that which I buried in my mind.

six feet deep.

with cold dirt.

and darkness.

but now exposed to the light of this day.



I HAVE TOTALLY GREAT NEWS. I am coming home for Christmas :). I cannot wait to get home and see my family, and friends hopefully. I am a little home sick. Mostly because I know how easy it is to be at home. With no expectations, no e-mails, no planner... But I chose this because God wanted me to, and I am still choosing it every day because I want to. I want to be here, I want to make a difference, I want to do what God has planned for me because if he planned it then it is destined for greatness, whether I realize that now or 10 years later. God is good. God is here. God loves you and God loves me and as long as we remember that much we will be alright.



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