sigh.

Family :::

Yeah, so, I miss my family, a lot. I feel kind of like I am missing their lives, like I am not there to be with them while they have birthdays and have good days and bad days and eat dinner together...

It's not like I am lonely, really, I mean I have people who mean the world to me around me all the time, but sometimes you just really want a hug from your Grandma, or your mom, or your dad, or even (maybe especially) your little brother.

And sometimes it just hits you and you want to fly home that night. But you know that you aren't going to. And that is ok. Because tomorrow will come, and tomorrow will go, and pretty soon all the tomorrows will have come and gone, and you will be flying home that night.

And until then you learn so much more about yourself and life. Like that you maybe don't want to live in Africa as a missionary for the rest of your life. And that maybe you need your family to be closer than you thought you needed them. Or that pasta is the easiest and quickest meal, but couscous is even faster! And better yet - cereal and milk. You also learn that houses get dirty really fast, and there are always going to be dishes. You learn how to live with out a car, and sometimes fight to find motivation to walk to the store/the gym/the mall/a friends place.

You cherish the meals that others cook for you, the hugs your friends give you, the Saturday nights that you can go to bed early, and the cards that come for you in the post.

You remember how easy life was in high school, and how hard you thought it was.

You realize, that you will miss England, and more importantly, the people you have come to love who live in England. You remind yourself of this, and try not to take moments for granted.

But you still have 127 days. Plus a month, if you stay an extra month, but who knows when you will sort your life out.

xoxo.

Battle Wounds and Friendship Bracelets

Right now I am sitting with my foot on my desk, icing my shin. Why am I icing my shin? Because while in England I have taken up a new sport. Hockey. But English hockey, which means you play on an astro turf/tennis court ish field, and the teams/goals are set up like regular hockey, but your stick is half the size (will post picture soon) and the puck is just as hard, but in the shape of a ball. Well I did not bring shin guards to England - meant to bring them and my cleats back after Christmas but forgot - and tonight I took a puck to the shin - ouch ouch ouch! It swelled up within 10 minutes. So I now have a good lump there, and it hurts a bit to move. Exciting! haha.

Today I taught my first Pathfinders class, I was really a bit anxious about it, there are 15 kids in my class and I was worried they would not listen to me. But it went really well. We did group presentations on a Bible Parable/Miracle of their choice, and then I taught them how to make friendhship bracelets! I just started learning yesterday, and I love it, I had always wanted to learn and now I finally am, teaching the class was really fun. At first I was not sure about Pathfinders, I had never done it in my home church before, and I felt like I had no idea what I was doing, but it is actually a great thing for the kids. For those of you who don't know, Pathfinders is like my Church's version of Boy Scouts. They learn useful things like camping, simming, how to tie knots and cook food etc, and also learn about the Bible and Church.

I miss my family, and I was planning on going to Spain for ACA in the summer, and I hope I can stick with that plan, because part of me just wants to go home. 4 months until ACA, 5 months until home :D.

XOXO

Getting Over

::: getting over :::
Getting over but not quite done
I do great until the weekend hits
but our memories are blurred, and new ones have begun
I'm here, you're there, that makes it better
If she wants to love you well,
It won't be long until you let her
To be honest, I think I'm getting over...
Getting over but not quite done
Ready to come home and,
For once I think I won't run
There's not much left to run from
Because I am getting over...
Getting over, but not quite done with you

I am in love...aww....

It has been roughly two weeks since I fell in love....











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almost had you, haha, I fell in love with the gym!! I just thought you might like to know, oh and see my progress:
yep. that's right. I now have MASSIVE muscles. (in case you can't tell, I am pushing them up, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)

no, but honestly. The gym has made me so much happier. When we stop exercising, we forget how much it does for us. I was feeling pretty down at times before I started the gym, I wasn't feeling happy about how out of shape I was, and it was something that constantly bothered me. I am much happier now, and I love having a membership!! My favorite class is Legs, Bums, and Tums, lol. Or body combat, which is pretty intense. I have started spinning class as well, and the instructor is totally insane, in a good way. Like I cannot even tell she has legs that is how fast she pedals. My life is getting really busy again, and I am surprised I have even taken the time to write on here! I made vegan brownies the other day, with carob rather than chocolate, and they were gross. So I made them again with dark chocolate, and I think I may be in love. I have eaten half the pan in 3 days. SOOO good. They have tofu in them, which gives them an amazing texture. I love vegan food. But NOT carob. I do not love carob, but anyone who does deserves a high five, or a hug, or carob cookie, something!

So since I started the gym, I have no desire to walk anywhere anymore. I used to walk to the town center and back at least once a week (like a 25 minute walk each way). And I would go to the store all the time...and now...I am just like...ugh, how bad do I need to go?

Plus I am always running out of money, this whole living pay check to pay check thing is rough.

So here is some CRAZY news. I applying to go to ACA Spain, just for the summer program. Which means if I get to go, I will leave England the first week in June. only FOUR months from now. So pray about my life please, thanks, haha.

Jesus loves you, always has, always will.

a.