It's a Mad World

I am tragically upset right now. My basic feeling is insane frustration at this world. our world has gone so completely crazy and bad that we don't even stop to ask ourselves the most basic questions. we don't even consider the fact that maybe, maybe it's not just about us. we think about ourselves and how what we are doing feels, and if it feels good we go with it. if what we are doing is something we benefit from, something we enjoy, something we can get lost in from the pure joy of it, we don't think twice. what a wise plan satan has. think back. garden of eden, book of Genesis, why did Eve eat the apple, it looked good. why do we do what we do, it looks good. sex. drugs. money. popularity. it all looks good. satan isn't an idiot, he's conned us all into falling for anything that will trip us up, pull us away from God, make us forget all about why we are here and who made us and how much we are loved. my challenge for us is this. stop man. just stop. push pause. think twice. pray. just because it feels good, tastes good, sounds good, doesn't mean it is. and it's not just about you. anything and everything you do wil effect someone else whether you know it or not, whether it's instantly or takes centuries. you make a difference. and the choices you make on an everyday basis could change the world around you in more ways than you realize.

A month and two days

I wake up and I lay in bed. I am thinking "wow, I live in England". It has been a month and 2 days now that I have been here. It's gone by quickly. I am homesick and Chris sick :). But not to the point of tears, usually. Sometimes though it just hits you. I went to see the proposal today with Zoe and Charlotte, and it made me tear up cause it made me think about Chris, I had to force my mind somewhere else. I miss my family too though, I wish Austin could come visit me, with me being off in other places all the time we haven't ever gotten to get as close as I wish we were. But I love him and I know he loves me and I will always be here for him. My mom and dad are a given...of course I miss them. I miss just hanging out the four of us. Going to the mountains, or eating breakfast, or playing games, whatever, I am really really blessed to have the family that I do and I will always miss them when I am not with them. It would have been easy to stay at home. To stay in a place that I know, with people I know, doing things that I know how to do. To stay in my little church. Comfortable, and easy. But I am glad I am here. Growing, learning, and making new friends. People are already asking me what I am going to do next year. It would be smart to have a plan I suppose. I don't. But if you know me, you know that even if I did it would probably change. lol. I know that I am here, I am happy, and this is where God wants me. That's enough for me right now.